december: just another day.
11:12pm its 16th december, which is my birthday. a day that i want to skip. a day that got me breakdown into anxiety the night before. to be honest, i'm tired. i want this pain to end. i can't stop myself from wishing to be gone every single day. i hate to wake up the next day so i will keep on sleeping until i can't sleep anymore. i don't want to wake up. to go through the next day, to push myself doing something. i'm tired. i am truly tired.. my parents, siblings keep on telling me to do something and stop wasting my time. i know they told me so because they cares. but the voices in my head just make it worst. i can't seems to take what they said positively. i hate myself. i always always hate myself. the urge to harm myself everytime, i don't know how long i can hold it. i'm turning 21 this year yet i still being a burden to everyone. what should i do. what should i do more to make this pain end. i'm too tired to putting a happy face. having myse...